It Seems I’m Not So Insane

This morning, when it was still dark, I woke up to the sounds of my husband in the middle of “Pure Cardio” one of the Insanity workouts. I rolled over and closed my eyes again. I wouldn’t be joining him today.

We started the workout just about a month ago and for the first two weeks I loved it. I mean, let me clarify, I hated it. It’s the hardest thing I’ve ever done but the results were hard to deny and the sense of accomplishment after finishing is hard to beat.

But something funny happened after two weeks, I started to avoid it like the plague. First I blamed it on the fact that my husband was on vacation for the beginning and we had time to do it together at normal hours. Now that he had switched to an 0-dark-30 time slot, I wanted nothing to do with it. I worked out a few times on my own but more often, I’d go for a run or do a yoga video online.

The week the kids went back to school all I could think was, I’m free, why would I do a DVD in my living room? I headed back to my long-lost gym. I went for outdoor runs. I switched it up every day and you know what? I felt better than I had in three weeks!

That’s when it hit me-this daily, aggressive, intense workout may just not be for me. It’s phenomenal, don’t get me wrong. I actually enjoy the individual workouts and I have no doubt if I stuck with it every day for 60 days like your supposed to, I’d notice results. I can see them in my husband. Maybe someday, I will.

But, for now I don’t want to. For three weeks my pervasive mood has been angry and tight and irritated. I don’t want to feel that way because of exercise. Life’s too short and my relationship with working out is so tenuous, I don’t need any excuses to skip it. You have to know what works for you. You have to be able to maintain something that is good for you. This workout is great. I’m just not sure in it’s current form, it’s good for me.

So, I’ll mix the DVDs in a few times a week. I’ll reach for Shaun T on rainy days or afternoons where I’ve worked so much I’ve nearly missed the time to go to the gym or catch a run before picking up the kids. I’ll even join my husband on weekends. But my Insanity as a program days are over, I think. My core might be mad, but my psyche and soul are thanking me.

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4 Responses to It Seems I’m Not So Insane

  1. CC Fowler says:

    I have to agree….My hubby does p90x. At first, I loved it but within a few weeks, I would come up with the silliest excuses to avoid the workout. I gave it two tries this summer after my initial success with it – but just hated it. Now, I am back to what I love most – kettlebell bootcamp and I am happy again :-)

    • Oh, I was so gung-ho for two weeks. Then I thought I was just unmotivated, but that wasn’t it. I was fine walking, running and working out at the gym. It was just when faced with that video that I got all cranky.

  2. selfishmom says:

    I totally get it. I can’t tell me how many times people have told me that HAVE to do a certain workout or eat a certain way to lose weight. Know what works? Something you don’t hate and will be able to stick to. :-)

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